I wonder what my life would be like if I chose a profession that was “stereotypically gay”. Would I be happier?
Generally I wish that, while I was younger, the fear of being called girly (and variants thereof) hadn’t informed almost every single fucking choice I ever made.
The traditional term for homosexuality in China is “the passion of the cut sleeve boys” (断袖之癖), so named from the story of Emperor Ai of Han (27 BCE - 1 BCE) and Dong Xian (23 BCE - 1 BCE). As the story goes, Emperor Ai fell in love with a minor official named Dong Xian. Dong Xian quickly gained the Emperor’s favor. One afternoon as they slept in bed, Emperor Ai woke up. Rather than wake his lover, he cut the sleeves of his robe to let his lover sleep longer. Homosexuality was regarded as a normal affair up until the late Qing dynasty when the government attempted to westernize the country.
In short, the western world continues to fuck shit up for everyone, even to this day.
Fucking cultural imperialism.
(I say that fully aware that the vast majority of media I consume is produced in America).
Back when I was in High School, I didn’t so much Come Out to my parents so much as they found out. I’d rather not go into the details of how that happened because just thinking about it makes me want to cut out my heart and squeeze it until I stop feeling feels.
So they know and my sisters know. And it’s not a big deal. There was the whole “we always knew” stand bys and life went on as usual. And we never talk about it. Ever. It’s not some secret family shame or anything, they just don’t bring it up and neither do I. And it’s not like I’ve ever had a boyfriend to bring home (fml).
Consequently, I don’t know who in my extended family knows. I mean people talk, but I don’t know how far that talk went.
What I’m getting at is, my cousin just last night started following me on twitter. So theirs a chance he may find my tumblr. And I don’t know if he knows or not. And it’s awkward in that way where you’ve been friends with a person for years but you don’t know their name and it’s been so long it’s just weird to ask. You know what I mean?
So what, should I be like: “So cuz, you do know I suck cock, right? I mean not that I’ve gotten any action in years so it’s all theoretical. Yes that’s it, I’m theoretically gay.”
I hate my life and my life hates me.
I couldn’t get a good translation or match for the character’s name! Anyone know?D-D-D-D-DAT ASS Update:
Got his name: Dassai!
1; Kinda hot in here, I’ll just undress-
2; Heavy n’ plump bottom half is too sexy. *slurp slurp*
3; Wild Dassai.
4; I want to press my face and suffocate in Dassai’s huge ass.
Thanks wrought for name and translations, and second place goes to Yup, bara for the name as well! lol